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Recovering playwright, once won a STRANGER Genius Award for theater. Now writing a bloated novel about… G-d help me! Theatre.

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  • Day 2 / Reason 2 for Going Back to the Theatre: My Sister

    Day 2 / Reason 2 for Going Back to the Theatre: My Sister

    Against all better judgement I have begun a 12-part blog series enumerating my reasons for going back to the theatre, specifically to see ACT’s production of A Christmas Carol on December 12. This is day two of my virtual half-advent calendar.

    I have never really fully explained why I left the theatre back in 2013. My reasons were personal, even if my retirement was painfully public. Maybe I’ll get to sharing those reasons someday, but before I can do that, I should state for the record who is to blame for me becoming involved in the art form in the first place. That would by my sister, Margaret, or “Maggie” as those of us closest to her know her these days.

    Maggie first fully electrified my theatrical imagination playing Puck in her junior high school’s production of A Midsummer Night’s Dream. I was maybe six or seven, but I followed the Elizabethan text better than one might expect. Still, a lot of the language lofted over my head. Except when Maggie spoke, transformed as she was into a mischievous hobgoblin, seemingly in charge of all of the chaos reigning on the stage.

    Captain of our fairy band,
    Helena is here at hand,
    And the youth, mistook by me,
    Pleading for a lover’s fee.
    Shall we their fond pageant see?
    Lord, what fools these mortals be!

    I already had it mostly memorized, because I had listened to her memorizing it in her room over the weeks before.

    The following year, when my sister played Gollum in the school’s production of The Hobbit, the gas really hit the spark plug.

    “Bless us and splesh us my precious. Gol-LUM!”

    She would practice her lines over and over in her room with the door shut, but she was loud enough for me to hear everything in the room Eddie and I shared next door.

    “What’s it got in its pockets, my precious? Gol-LUM!”

    These eponymous punctuations “Gol-LUM!” burst forth from her as seemingly uncontrollable, autonomic eructations welling up from the pit of her gut. Or rather, Gollum’s gut, for she had, indeed, become the twisted little monster.

    “We wants it, we needs it. Must have the precious. They stole it from us. Sneaky little hobbitses. Wicked, tricksy, false!”

    Looking back now, she was so unlike other girls her age, in the mid-70s: so obsessed with hair and fashion and looks. Oh, Maggie cared about those things too, obsessed about them at times, but she threw them all aside when she came to inhabit Gollum. Once him, she didn’t care one bit about looking feminine, even though the director had squeezed her blossoming body into a green and brown painted body suit. She gave herself over completely to the character. It was really, for me, the first time I had ever witnessed such a transformation.

    Now you may say, wait a minute. She was doing theatre, pretending. This wasn’t real. But when your oldest sister by six years is becoming an avariciously murderous monster in the room next door to yours, it’s real all right.

    Keep in mind this is decades before the magic of Peter Jackson’s digital capture of Andy Cirkus’ pliable, gamut-running, psychologically insightful portrayal in the Lord of the Rings Trilogy. It was even prior to the animated version of The Hobbit released in 1977. As far as I know my sister had never seen a performance of Gollum, and I’m not even sure she read the book. My sister had nothing from which to construct her portrayal but the text of the stage adaption and her own imagination. In other words, she did the quintessential actor’s job, and took fresh text (fresh to her anyways) and molded from it a character whom she then inhabited. Her portrayal of Gollum encapsulated everything about the theatrical process that would get and keep me stoked  for the next three decades. As an artist, my sister set me on fire. With Puck and Gollum she showed me how weirdness and audacity could be leveraged into a gift you could offer other people in performance.

    The key to my origin story as a theatre artist—which I never put together consciously throughout all those decades of doing it, and only just fully realized writing this—is that I started acting, and then went on to playwriting, because of my sister Maggie. She touched the match to my fuse as an artist, and I’ve been burning ever since. Christmas Carol Ticket stub

    Every one of my siblings has some experience with the theatre, but I was the only one who went professional. I got my Actors’ Equity card at the age of 19 playing Young Scrooge at Ford’s Theatre in Washington, DC. I never used my union card again.

    My Christmas present from Maggie that year was a beautiful, hardbound illustrated copy of A Christmas Carol. Here’s how she inscribed it.

    1/11/88

    Dear Paul,

    I saw this book a week or so after we saw your show & I had to get it for you. I know that the show caused some inner turbulence for you but it is a timeless story that touches everyone’s heart. Your show was an excellent adaptation of the story. After buying this book I started thinking about what it is that makes this story so special. What did I come up with? We can identify with Scrooge’s past, present and future “personas”, and we can relate to the loss of Christmas spirit that seems to occur as we get older. We become so caught up in the ways of the world, that we lose touch with the ways of the soul. I’d like to believe that in this story Dickens isn’t merely encouraging the celebration of Christmas, he’s demanding that we celebrate life. The ghosts are merely showing us how we have allowed the control of our lives to be taken out of our hands. To you, dear brother, I wis a full, rewarding, happy, sad, thoughtful, action-packed, glorious and challenging life. I hope that you will enjoy this book & celebrate Christmas every day of your life.

    Lots of Love,

    MCM [Margaret Cecilia Mullin]

    Christmas Carol inscription

    There’s so much I could tell you about everything my sister has taught me over the years, but if I had to boil it all down to highlights it would be these:

    • Life is long, but ultimately short.
    • Be weird when you want.
    • Be loud in your love.
    • Celebrate light in the darkness.
  • To Not Die the Death of a Rag Doll

    To Not Die the Death of a Rag Doll

    It’s been a little quiet lately, hasn’t it? 

    Three weeks ago today TPS hosted the Seattle whistle stop of the authors of Outrageous Fortune.  At the end of that day’s session our community received high praise from the panelists as being the first place where they heard such frank and open discussion among playwrights, artistic directors, and other theatre professionals in the room.  We all know, however, that talk is cheap, action expensive, and real progress almost prohibitively so. 

    There have been, however, some positive steps, like Jim Jewell’s astoundingly succinct, yet imminently workable proposal for pipelining work from smaller local theatres to the big houses.  With his permission I posted it here.  I am also being told about subtle maneuvers being made behind the scenes to bring the right people in to a room together for a more private session.  (This, of course, presupposes that someone knows who the right people are.)  Also, rumors of another Stranger-hosted Shit-Storm toss about on the chill spring sound wind, though some doubt another such gathering’s potential to effect any real change.  Says former Seattle Weekly theatre critic,  John Longenbaugh:  “What exactly did all of those Sh*tstorms ever accomplish? Did any local theatre change its policies in any way? Did any playwright get produced as a result?”

    Even a stopped clock is right twice a day.  The Shit-Storms have been little more than opportunities for blowing off steam.  Representatives from the Big Houses attend them about as frequently and enthusiastically as vegans visit underground cockfights.  I suspect that several of our entrenched artistic administrators viewed the Outrageous Fortune discussion as little more than a similar but mandatory appointment to act interested in the concerns of playwrights while intending to change exactly nothing.

    There was an expression used in my family when I was growing up: “to die the death of a rag doll”.  Oddly, I have never heard it used anywhere else.  So a few years ago I wrote short essay illuminating the expression’s meaning and usage.  I share it here, in the hopes that our efforts to advance locally grown new plays and bring Seattle to its rightful standing as a world class theatre town does not suffer this uniquely miserable fate.

    To Die the Death of A Rag Doll

    I think I first heard the expression “[blank] died the death of a rag doll” from my oldest sister, and I have always suspected it was passed down to her along the well-worn matrilineal pathways of old Irish sayings, like “whistling makes the Virgin Mary cry” and “this place is filthier than Hogan’s Alley” (don’t ask, I don’t know). Of course, I’m not really sure where my sister got it, although I am  certain that if I asked her, she would blithely swear that she has never heard of, let alone used, the expression in her entire life. (My sister’s like that. Happy to encourage your suspicions of your own insanity.)

    It is perfect really: the best idioms have sort of poetic shorthand about them. They not only say something in less words than it would take to do so straightforwardly, they add a touch of the ineffable to the description, so that strangely, beautifully, they say something that is effectively impossible to say else wise.

    Of course, if I had to come right out and prosaically define it, I would say that a rag doll death is the slow passage into nonexistence of that which was once, however briefly, ardently embraced. You held her patchwork body to your chest every night as you feel asleep, and then one night, either because you got a nicer stuffed toy, or because it dawned on you that sleeping with dolls is stupid, you put her at the bottom of your bed instead of hugging her to you. From there to underneath the bed, dusty and forgotten, is just a few sad, small steps. One day, she just disappears. Maybe Mom throws her out or gives her to Good Will, but it is of no concern to you. You have not even noticed she is gone.

    Once something ceases to be remembered, did it ever even exist at all?

    Examples of things that can die the death of a rag doll:

    • Plans to put in a vegetable garden this year
    • Relationships
    • The ability to fox trot
    • New Year’s resolutions
    • Epic poems
    • Flowers
    • The commitment to learn another language or play a musical instrument
    • Tropical fish
    • Theatre
    • The conviction that, on the balance, the United States of America is a good and just nation
    • Crushes
    • The ability to water ski
    • Ego
    • The four freedoms
    • Inhibitions
    • The certitude that you will one day be pleasantly famous for doing what you do best
    • Black light posters
    • Health
    • Christ-like Christianity
    • A taste for fruit-flavored wine coolers
    • Sexual dynamism
    • A superpower’s promise to bring democracy to nation after invading it
    • Bottles of Crème de Cacao
    • Liberal good intentions
    • A memorized list of the entire crew of the Argo
    • Hopes and dreams
    • Everything
  • “World Class” = Fighting Words

    “World Class” = Fighting Words

    The third in a series of essays entitled:
    Towards a World Class Theatre

    When I started mouthing off in a more public and formalized way about the state of theatre in Seattle, I expected some blow back.  This is the Northwest after all.  The very same person who in real life might cross the street in order to avoid saying hello is happy to anonymously savage you in your blog’s comment section.*  What I did not anticipate was that the most controversial thing I could propose would be that theatre professionals should work together over the next five years towards making Seattle theatre world class.  This, apparently, was apostasy that certain Seattleites simply could not abide.  The objections sorted out into three essential themes:

    “What are you talking about?  We’re already world class dammit!”

    Why do people not think it’s a “world class” theatre community now?  If you talk to someone who moves here from… the midwest or the south, they are enthusiastic about the Seattle theater scene.
    Heidi Heimarck, responding to the 2009 Rain City Projects Survey

    We all may look back ten years from now and recognize that Seattle is today a thriving community.  There are issues, yes, but there’s some great stuff going on if you look at it right.
    Jerry Manning, RCP Survey

    Seattle is just about a world class theater community, it just is not aware of it, and seems to refuse acknowledging it.
    Jose Amador, RCP Survey

    “Five years?!?  Are you crazy!?!”

    5 years is a short span of time, given the effect the economy is going to have on the arts over that period.
    Anonymous, RCP Survey

    I think Seattle has lots of potential, but I’m not sure it could get there in five years. But lots and lots of potential.
    Rachel Hynes, RCP Survey

    I have packets of Kool-Aid if you’d like some.
    Andy Jensen, RCP Survey

    “Define your terms or prepare to die!”

    I’m not sure what it would mean to be a “world class” theatre community.
    Mike Daisey,  RCP Survey

    Define “world class.” If world class means NY or London, why would we go out of our way to suck that hard? “World class” doesn’t mean anything, it’s not a tangible objective. It’s a marketing term, a feeling, some kind of psychological compensation. A goal is a $10MM theatre industry by 2020. A goal is 20 Seattle-based playwrights making $100K annually by 2020. A goal is every Seattle theatre at 90% capacity by 2020. Whatever the goal, it has to be tangible – something that can be measured in precise terms.

    Louis Broome, RCP Survey

    Does it mean Seattle theatre is regularly discussed in world newspapers? …Other countries regularly import Seattle productions to run in their local theatres? Plays written by Seattle natives are produced in other countries?  Seattle theatre gets lots of mentions in The Drama Review? …  What goals do you propose that when met signify arrival? How is Seattle tracking today against those goals?
    Jeffery Reid, commenting on my kick-off essay “Towards a World Class Theatre

    I hate the need to be world classy unless someone can define it for me.
    Matthew Smucker, 2009 RCP Survey

    To have a world class theatre town, you must first define what that means.  You define the goal.  I believe that we discussed the importance of having a goal and you coyly responded several times that that was not necessary.

    Margaret Mullin, my sister, in an email I asked permission to quote.

    My sister is right.  I did respond that it was not necessary to define my terms, but there is nothing coy about it.  We not only do not need to lock down what “world class” means, it would be unwise for any single one of us to try to do so.  Louis Broome hit it on the nose:  “‘World class’ doesn’t mean anything …. It’s a marketing term, a feeling…”  Such was always my intention.  All the extremely smart Seattleites, Louis and my sister included, who demand something perfectly specific and quantifiable are, to my mind, like a group of outraged soda lovers storming Coca-Cola headquarters demanding: “What do you mean, ‘Coke is it?’  What the hell does ‘it’ mean?  You say you’d ‘like to buy the world a coke’?  You can’t be serious?  Do you know how much that would cost?”

    Having worked at the lowest levels in corporate America for nearly two decades to support myself and my family, I am exhaustively acquainted with the standard management mantras: 

    You cannot change what you do not measure.

    If you’re not measuring, it doesn’t count.

    But as someone who has heard these litanies chanted, at putatively great Seattle companies where I have worked from MidCom to WaMu— companies that dominated their industries and then ultimately failed— I know how deeply data-bedazzled senior management can fixate on charts and dashboards that actual workers have no realistic way of affecting for good or ill.  Such high-minded, good intentioned strategizing has become the roadmap for enfeebling an entire nation.  As my good friend and great editor, Charlie Loyd points out: “WaMu failed precisely because it had goals so clear and measurable that they took over from sanity.”

    So what I am proposing is a little different.  I am asking all of my colleagues to decide for themselves what would make Seattle a world class theatre town, and then work on those goals on which they believe they can individually move the needle.  We can employ the “wisdom of crowds” to get this done.  Surely a gifted scenic designer like Matthew Smucker has different ideas about how to elevate the game to “world class” than a gifted managing director like John Bradshaw, and both of them would differ from a poor playwright’s approach.  With us all working diligently, though, in our separate tracks, overlapping when possible and appropriate, we could certainly reach our collaborative goal of world class theatre; and once there, not need to debate the point, because, like Supreme Court Justice Potter Stewart espousing his timeless definition of pornography, we will “know it when [we] see it.”

    We are theatre professionals— I usually prefer “show people”, but for the sake of this argument, make no mistake, we are professionals, whether or not we pay dues to an out-of-touch union.  We ply the art of theatre—the art of “say-so”.  I say it, and thus it is so. 

    I am the King of England come to Agincourt.

    This wooden O holds the vasty fields of France.

    Seattle will be a world class theatre town in five years.

    I understand not everyone is sympathetic to this particular brand of rhetoric-as-reality.  Louis Broome again: “As mission statements go, ‘Seattle as a world class theatre town,’ stirs me not at all. ‘Seattle is the epicenter of a theatre revolution,’ is a good start.”  But I have misgivings about bandying a word as inescapably violent as “revolution.”  It implies a zero-sum game— some winning while others lose.  The game I suggest, if played well and with underlying generosity, need not have any losers at all.  Revolutions come and go and tend to be suggested by folks who do little if any of the actual fighting.  This city craves something more sustainable.  (And if Chairman Mao taught the world anything, it is that nothing is more hateful than a sustained revolution.)

    Then there are those who see the effort as beneath us, like my colleague, former Seattle Weekly drama critic John Longenbaugh, responding to my essay “1448 Afterwords and Forwards”: “I really wonder if the whole question is frankly provincial. I really don’t think that London, Chicago or New York artists, critics or audiences worry if they’re still doing ‘world class theatre.’ So why should we?”

    Ah.  I think I see.  Nothing is more provincial than aspiring to be more than provincial.  What wonderful latte logic: frothy, appealingly bitter, and artfully laced with a barely noticeable hint of syrupy self-loathing masked as indifference.  But the strong and black cup-o’-joe fact is that you can safely bet your sweet ass Chicago cares.  A lot.  As do New York and London.  As a former reviewer, John might take particular notice of the title The Chicago Tribune’s drama critic Chris Jones came up with for his blog, Theater Loop: News from America’s Hottest Theater City.  How is that for self-aggrandizement?  And from a critic no less!  Boosterism like this is a flogging offence among Seattle’s professional theatre goers, as S.P. Miskowski, who recently moved to Los Angeles, points out in her response to Longenbaugh’s comments.

    The work I’ve seen in Seattle is, as John said, on a par with New York and London. What is not world class is the way theater is perceived in Seattle. When people decide where the limited amount of money will go, they fail to consider that theater is making the city more livable, more exciting, and more interesting. They fail to give theater its due. So do (some of)  the critics. My view is that theater artists accept lousy critiques from unqualified reviewers on a regular basis out of fear that if they don’t make nice they will be squashed. …And there’s the smug assumption that positive reviews are what we want when we say we want better reviewing. It isn’t. We want people who can read and write and evaluate. We want people who stay for the entire show. We want people who write about the show and not themselves. Most of all, I hereby call for a change in attitude among editors and critics–to take theater seriously as an art form. I dare you to take it seriously…. Take as a given that Seattle IS a world class theater city, and keep that in mind when you plant your butt in a free seat and start taking notes?

    Where I differ with S.P. is that I think critics own less responsibility for the “it-ain’t-cool-to-think-you’re-cool” campaign than many artists and artistic directors themselves.
    60; Then again, I have innate issues with ceding any undue influence to a questionable and ever shrinking handful of opinion mongers.  Certainly no one can deny that this self-defeating predisposition against self-promotion runs deep and wide through Pacific Northwest culture.  Its origins are beyond my East Coast ken or caring to explicate, but suffice it to say, in the theatre at least, we can and will change it.

    Chicago, New York and London never miss a chance to promote their respective scenes.  They not only “worry” about it.  They spend money on it.  Lots and lots of money to make sure their theatre districts keep drawing tourists and locals alike, to the playhouses themselves and to all the businesses that depend on them: the restaurants, bars, souvenir shops, and so on and on.  We want, in a few short years, to be able to go to our mayor, now newly elected, and say, “Seattle is now a world class theatre city.  We said it would be so.  We worked at it and made it so.  Everybody who lives here and everybody in the greater American theater community knows it.  Now kindly spend some of that money and prestige we have earned this city back on us.”

    As I inveigh against self-defeating specificity, let me be specific about one thing.  I am not asking that we benchmark ourselves against New York or London or Chicago.  Playing a toy replica-scale, inferiority complex-driven version of their game gets us nowhere.  Our smallness and uniqueness and, yes, even our geographic remoteness can work just as strongly for us as against.  You can get your arms around the Seattle theatre scene.  You can, if you work hard enough and long enough, confidently claim to know all, or almost all, of the players.  A small, nimble, semi-quarantined community such as ours can make its own unique claims on world class.  We can, if we want, be doing work that no one anywhere else could possibly do.

    We are show people.  We can claim to be anything we want to be.  The more outrageous and untenable, the better, so long as we ultimately back it up through sheer creative brilliance.  We are not obliged to subscribe to any preordained corporatized benchmark.  The audience is our only arbiter.  So long as we give them what they want, or better– what they did not even realize they wanted until we made them want it in the first place– we are doing our jobs superbly.  We should stake our claim, without irony or arrogance, to becoming a world class theatre community, and when, and only when, we convince our audiences, then world class is what we will be.  Because we say so.

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    *I no longer allow anonymous comments on my blog.  As I wrote when the first one was posted: 

    I know it’s considered the custom of the internet country to post anonymously, but there is no tradition of it in the theatre. In the world of live performance, one says one’s words in public and stands by them with their body. So as a rule I won’t be accepting any more anonymous posts. Stand and deliver, people!

    Many of the quotes I have included in this essay came from the 2009 Rain City Projects Survey, which, as a member of the RCP Board, I helped to design and distribute, and then analyze the returning data.  The results were made public in August of 2009 and a more detailed report is available at RCP’s Facebook page:  http://www.facebook.com/home.php#/notes/rain-city-projects/the-rain-city-projects-survey-results-are-in/123960970745

    Because I am an unrepentant data geek, and because this essay does not have any other pictures let me share one of the results graphs here.  You can draw your own conclusions, but clearly a majority of the Northwest theatre community currently believes Seattle is a good but not great theatre town.  Its rating as a new play community is significantly less high.  I think these are connected.  Once we get better at developing and disseminating strong locally grown plays, our stock as a theatre town will rise to “world class.”  That is a data gauge needle that I can get behind trying push.